Monday, October 1, 2007

Boo...whoever you are

Song of the Day: Whatever happened by The Strokes

That's what I'm asking! I just found out that I didn't get a job that I really wanted on a movie in town. It was the Director's assistant on a bigger budget movie. I've been working on some pretty ghetto little movies this year and I was looking forward to the peace and solace of a bigger budget movie, where I would, hopefully get paid better. Well, I guess they gave the job to someone else and I can't even imagine who because I know everyone around town and no one told me about that. Oh well, I'm still in the runnings for the producers' assistant job, but I don't really want that one. I kind of need a break where I don't have to think so hard for a while. Oh well. I guess I'm looking forward to a couple of weeks off at this point. LA vacay maybe?

Saturday, September 29, 2007


Song of the day- Opus 23 by Dustin O'Halloran

So this post goes out to Fergal. Thanks for being so encouraging and supportive even though I'm obviously crazy. You rule.

In other news, I am swiftly falling asleep at my desk. Perchance it was my two hour hike in the Tent Rocks that did it, or maybe it's just the fact that I'm somewhat of a mechanical robot burning disc after disc of still photographs from the movie that I am currently working on. It's been my job to work as the digital photo lab and catalogue all of the photos, rearrange them all and send to all the necessary parties. I don't mind doing it, but it's been hard finding the time with my other assistant responsibilities. Boo. Not kidding, I could definitely fall asleep right here, right now. Well, my boss is gone, I could possibly lay down in his office for a bit...

Well, besides not really being super enthused about work at the moment, I had a pretty fabulous weekend. Exhausting yes, but worth every minute. I spent most of Saturday with my friend Liz on our spa day. I went to my new favorite spa, Betty's Bath and had massages and facials. I didn't know I looked so bad until I looked in the mirror on my way out the door. the difference between when I arrived and when I left was quite astounding. I should have done a before and after pic, but whatever, don't want to scare people. That took up most of my Saturday. I ended up meeting up with a couple of friends downtown later, which was fun, but I was in such an altered state of mind since the massage, that I all I could think about was curling up in my big, soft bed and going to sleep forever. Sunday was somewhat more productive.

I met up with some friends in the afternoon, and went up to Dixon Apple Farm to check out the new crop of Champagne apples. I love them so much! I'm feeling homely and really want to make a pie so I picked up a half bushel of beautifully crisp, sweet, surprisingly spicy apples. I conned a few of my friends to come along and we had a nice romp in the orchard before we all headed over the Tent Rocks National monument for an impromptu hike. two hours later, and right at sunset, I hobbled back to the car with a some what sore posterior. It was worth it though. I slept so well. I basically did a face plant into my pillow last night. It was all pretty perfect. You can really feel fall now. New Mexico fall is a little weirder that in other places. It tends to be really chilly in the morning and at night, but still around 75 degrees in the middle of the afternoon. It's pretty easy to start off wearing a sweater, switch to a tank top and back to a sweater at night. I also bought a huge jar of orange blossom honey on the side of the road. Uh, that may be the best honey in the entire world. I seriously wanted to to just eat spoonfuls of it. It was so amazing.

All in all, I'd say it was a pretty rejuvenating weekend. I think I really needed it too. i spent the last two weekends working so, I think I deserved it.

Friday, September 28, 2007 really unbelievable

Uh, so I don't know how this happened, but I had another audition for a movie filming up in Santa Fe and got the role. This is just crazy. I am so thrilled that I don't know what to do. Once I can handle, but two roles in a row? That's just loopy.

This is how it went down-
I went to an audition in Santa Fe for the role of Kelly, and army wife. Well, the casting director liked my reading and told me that it was great, but I didn't get a callback when she said that I would, so I gave up on it. Well, I got a call the next day to come back for a callback. Funny, when I got there for it I was the only one called back for that role. I was pretty excited about that when I realized it was just me. I went in and read for the director and he told me right away that I had the role. I was somewhat beside myself when I heard that. So I will be filming that role on October 12th.

The only downside to this role is that I had 3 scenes, but then they cut it down to just one scene. Boo. did I mention that I'm playing a pregnant woman? Yeah. Now that is funny.

That's about the only thing that I have to look forward to right now. I don't have a job after this movie is over, so I need to find something. A girl's got to eat.

Monday, August 20, 2007


Song of the day: Big Pimpin' by Jay-Z

Should I be somewhat unnerved at the fact that things are going really, really well right now? I'm not entirely sire what to do with myself. I'm working with some really great people who are incredibly caring and kind. My boss is amazing and let's me go to auditions. Now that is amazing considering the fact that it's basically a cardinal sin to be a producer's assistant and an actor at the same time. In the past, I've just run mysterious "errands" when I had an audition, but my boss is so great that I just couldn't do that. Well, I fessed up and told him that I had an audition and he was so great to let me go. Already that felt like a win for me.

So, I went and I felt really good about it. I was up for the part of a bridesmaid, but the role is add-lib so it was actually easier than I thought it would be. I left feeling pretty good about the whole thing, but ya never know. Well, I got a call back and also the instruction to read for another roll as well, so that was a surprise to me. the call backs were really strange though. they just herded everyone who was there for the bridesmaid and wedding planner roles and took a picture of us and that was it. They didn't ask us to do anything else!

I was pretty much over it after that. I wasn't as excited about it and I waited until the end of the week and I didn't hear anything, so I figured it was about over. Well, wonder of wonders I got a call today that I got the role of the wedding planner. Which is amazing considering that I didn't audition for it at all! Strange or what? I was mostly stunned at first, basically because I had pretty much decided that it was all over. Yeah... so now what?

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Serenity Now!

Song of the day: Be my Love by Over the Rhine

Wow. It has been an exhausting day at the office. Not in a bad way, but in an extremely busy day kind of way. One of my jobs while we are in Pre-Production is to type and manage the shotlist for the Director. In theory, it's pretty fun, but it takes sooo long. I get an average of 20 scenes everyday and it takes me about 4-5 hours to type the whole thing up and make necessary adjustments- like grammar, formatting, etc. So, that being half of the day already, that barely gives me time to do all of the other things I need to, like setting up meetings, updating the Pre-Production Schedule, and putting out various fires which involves a sudden flurry of activity and me clacking around in my heels throughout the office. So anyway, as a result the poor Shotlist takes a backseat to other crazy things that happen.

The brightest spot so far has been shot listing the one sex scene we have in the film. That actually made me giggle, which I know is super immature, but cut me some slack ok? It just sounds really funny: Med. shot- hands in panties, or CU- hands on breasts. Honestly, that is pretty great. it just sounds so robotic.

Other than that big project things are pretty amazing. I somehow ended up with the coolest producer ever as a boss. He's taken me out to lunch 3 times. never in the history of my entire career have my bosses even paid much attention to me, much less invite me to come along AND let me converse with them. Maybe he's really a Stepford boss and it will be revealed that he is in fact an alien.

I think the only thing that is a little cloud in this glorious field of sunny, blue skies, is the part where I should have told him in my interview that I act. Lame on my part. It has nothing to do with schmoozing. It really has to do with letting people see me for what I really am and not hiding my other aspirations because I'm scared to let people know what I really want to do in this business. I have a bad habit of only telling people what i think they want to hear. especially in interviews, because people tend to get funny in this business if you say you want to act AND write AND produce. that's not too much now is it?

Oh well, "I do what I want." In the famous words of Cartman.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Maybe I'll be okay

Song of the Day: If You Want Me by Marketa Irglova

Well, After being gloomy for days on end now and crying myself to sleep last night, can now say that I really feel better. I was pretty shaky there for a bit, but I've come to terms with some things now. First week at the job, and amazingly things are going really, really well. My boss is amazingly cool and everyone except for one person, is great to work with. Do I need to pinch myself? this is pretty unbelievable honestly. not only have I had to be the coffee girl for most of this year, but most of my bosses basically treated me like a moron. If this keeps up, I may have a really hard time knowing what to do after this show.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Just when it all was coming together

Song of the Day: Invasion by Eisley

So just when things were getting interesting. I had a spectacular day on Saturday. I went to meet with my new agent at the A&M Agency that I am now a part of. It was a wonderful meeting and I left feeling ready to take on the acting world and work hard for the next 5 months and prepare myself for pilot season in LA. It was an amazing thing. Well, now I have gone and agreed to work as a Producer's Assistant on some film Angel Maker. I really hope this wasn't some horrible mistake. I felt pretty good about it, I mean a girl's got to eat, right? I have to do something with my life. I'm not independently wealthy nor do I have a rich sugar daddy so I have to figure this out myself. This bites. So great. Now I'm stuck working until October. I really do hope this doesn't come back to bite me in the butt. Suck.

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

Sweet Air

Song of the Day: My Moon my Man by Feist

I'm free! I finally finished one of the craziest, dramatic jobs I've ever done. This movie was crazy because I basically stopped caring about what anyone said or did and did whatever I thought was the smart thing to do. Which can be a bit rebellious when you don't listen to the producers, or production, or ADs. Whatever. Honestly, I knew I had more experience doing this than anyone else so why bother listening to what someone is telling me that has no idea what I'm doing in the first place? So, for me everything ended up great. I had a wonderful time with the people that I truly care about. Those are the people who have my back everyday and know what the hell I'm doing! I'm extremely excited about my life right now. Hello world, here I come! I've got business to attend to and there's no time to waste.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Coming to terms

Song of the Day: Today's the Day by Aimee Mann

Well, I made my bed. So, I'm doing, hopefully the last production of my life where I'll be a peon. I've made the decision to leave the non-lucrative job of being an assistant for the non-lucrative job of trying to act. Yeah trust me. I know I'm not as bright as some may like. I have decided to pass up a lot of seemingly good opportunities to do something seemingly stupid. But, I have to. I will never forgive myself if I take the easy way out and never do what I had originally intended to. It makes me excited in a way that nothing else does. I love every difficult minute of acting and even thought I know the odds are not so in my favor to do this I still want to. Isn't that sick? I have a perfectly good future if I want it in the area of production, but I just can't make myself do it. I try. I really do, but I want so badly to act. Whatever. I don't care. I do what I want.

Sunday, June 3, 2007

The imminent future-A life with John Malkovich vs. Kevin Costner

Song of the day: Relief by Chris Garneau

And so it begins. I head back to work on Tuesday, much to my chagrin. It's funny I can be off for 6 weeks and feel completely bored, but then when I know the future will happen, I get completely upset by it and can't wait for it to all be over. I know that partially it has to do with the fact that I have absolutely no desire to do this silly job on this movie. I half think that I screwed myself in taking it. It's a pity job. I'll hope for the best, but let's face it everyone is telling me I'm nuts for not doing the other job I was offered. It's kinda true. Who takes a horrible job for two weeks versus an incredible job for 5 months? No sane person that's true.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

To act or to live?

Song of the day: Tangerine by Herb Alpert

Oh geez. Why does everything feel like a life and death decision? there has to be an easier way to decide one's future that dividing it up between eating and hating your life, or starving and loving what you do. So lame.

Monday, May 21, 2007

Back to work?

Song of the day: Parentheses by The Blow

Well as all good thing must come to an end, so must my fabulous vacation. I will be going back to work next week, almost regrettably because now I have to opportunity to work on a film that sounds really exciting to me. What's a girl to do? Do I take the job that I already promised to work on for one month? Or the really fun movie that will keep me gainfully employed for 5 months? the art or the money? That's always the way it is. Do I stay legit or sell out?

The movie I am slated to work on is nice because it's only for a month and I would be speaking French like God intended, and it gives me the option to take more classes or audition in July. but the money baby, I really do hate being poor. having a job for 5 months would be amazing.

Oh, I hate decisions.

Friday, May 11, 2007


Song of the Day: Moving to New York by the Wombats

Yeah, so fun for me I'm stuck in the Phoenix airport mentally gnawing at the insides of my head. No really, not kidding. I spent the week in Vegas, which was a ton of fun (sure it's more fun if you aren't sober, but whatever) hanging out with my mom. She's a walker. I tell ya that! I walked my brains out the last few days. Have a serious butt cramp. Vegas is ca-razy. I'll have to say I was somewhat taken aback at the seriously unattractive men there. Serious troglodytes. The food however is really great. My favorite is the Hash House a Go-Go. It's really fantastic. I remember when I was sitting there, I thought to myself that it would be a place I think that Martha Stewart would like to eat. Funny, when I was leaving the restaurant whose picture should I see but the Queen of domesticity herself! Yeah, I was pretty excited to see that I can now channel Martha's taste. I love her so much.

Tuesday, May 1, 2007


Theme song: Heartaches by Patsy Cline
So I watched the film Otto e mezzo for the first time this past week. Fantastic. Saraghina is my favorite character ever now. I wish I was her. I have to find that music because it's amazing.

In other news, I am completely and utterly bored. I have officially been unemployed for 3 weeks now and it is starting to seriously bother me. You would think that after the past year I would be so excited to have some time off. Not so my friend. I'm the kind of person who needs to keep busy or else my mind goes nuts on me. It's not that I don't have things to do, it's just that there is no motivation to do any of it. Which is definitely a drag, because I have writing to do, acting to do, pictures to take. Ugh, I really have to get my butt in gear. Well, with that said, I'm gonna go write, read, knit, garden, clean, preen, and snap some pictures.


Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Unemployment Fest

Theme song: This Past Week by The Radio Dept.

Yes, today is the first ever Unemployment Fest! I am pretty excited about this since it affords me a reason to shower today. This is definitely a side effect of being in the NM film industry. Sometimes there is just no work to be had. Thankfully though all of my regular workmates are in the same boat so we can party in the afternoon without any guilt. Yes, we are starting at 2:00, so what? That is what one does when there is no work to be done. We have parties and just generally hang out.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Unemployment? Vacation?

Song of the Day: Let it Die by Feist

I am currently unemployed, or on vacation. Not exactly sure which it is yet. I finally finished one of the hardest jobs I've worked on in a very great while, and unfortunately I am somewhat worse for wear because of it. I have not worked so hard, for so many people, for so little. I know and understand that it is simply the way of the business, but it makes me a little bit sad anyway.
So here I am, jobless, but in a better emotional state than I've been in a while, but then there is that money thing. What is a girl to do? I am telling myself just to be happy with the time that I have right now to do all of the things I haven't had time to ie cleaning and sleeping.
I went to California last week to see if I can secure some sort of job for myself in the land of Hollywood. While I did do some job hunting, resume sending, and schmoozing, I did plenty of window shopping, bar-hopping, and sleeping. Thanks to good friends like Skyler, Ariel, and Cayley. Lemon drops are the best! easy on the tini!

Sunday, April 8, 2007

The Basics

The basics-
I live and work in ABQ. I work in film which basically means that I do slave labor and delusionally dream that one day, one day everything will have meant something. When I have time to think about things that actually matter to me- these are the things I love:
I love words. Words like subjunctive, tactile and mal a laisse. Knitting, sewing, writing, drawing, taking pictures, googling, picnics are a few things things that completely excite me. I love prickly things and soft sheets with high thread count. I can be a simple girl and walk all day covered in dirt in the islands of the Philippines, or doll myself up and head to Paris. From ponytails to pompadours, stilettos to sandals, I love it all!


So, this is a new for me. Having my privacy is of utter importance, but there is something to be said about having one's mind open for viewing and understanding.
So here goes.